Dirt & Mud
it's been quite a long time
since I've seen these green walls
I never thought I'd be the one to fall

pile this deep upon me
scratching so hard my fingers are bleeding
constantly searching, constantly feeling
this dirt and mud, this dirt and mud

hazy and blurred and grey
memories seem hard to recall
can't put my finger on it
like i never really lived at all

pictures do little to help
a state of constant questioning
over-analyse every event
as if I had no feeling


Break the Smiles
eyes closed lying on the floor,
why does this feel like just a dream
i've been her so many times before
...or so it seems

it's so soothing, not remembering anything
shallow as the bottle is, it's always my friend
glass after glass is how this begins
until the morning light brings the night's end

but you can't take this away
empty bottles and broken dreams
all those things that i thought would change
but you can't take this away

what has happened to this life
reckless and tossed aside
unfocused and watery eyes
forced to hide what's inside

crawling on your knuckles, always makes them bleed
100proof is the curse that feeds my disease
glass after glass, drink after drink
how this destructiveness completely consumes me

but you can't take this away
empty bottles and broken dreams
all those things that i thought would change
but you can't take this away

break the cycle, break the smiles
break the cycle, break the smiles

but you can't take this away
broken bottles and shattered dreams
what i hoped and prayed would change
but you can't take this away


Breathe
stretch your fingers across the skin
to find your veins of time won't heal again
silence ain' helping a thing
and violence inside, has grown in me

this isn't working, this isn't worth it, it's just bleeding me
this isn't worth it, it's not working, it's just bleeding me
can't you see this is not worth fighting for
can't you see this is not worth it anymore
can't you see that because of this part of me died
because real eyes realize real lies

breathe in, breathe out, it's what your life's about
step back, stand tall, you'll fall like me
in the end, you'll fall like me
you'll fall like me

this isn't working, this isn't worth it, it's just bleeding me
this isn't worth it, it's not working, it's just bleeding me
can't you see this is not worth fighting for
can't you see this is not worth it anymore
can't you see that because of this part of me died
because real eyes realize real lies

it will never go away, not today, not tomorrow
not the next day so take a page out of time
a memory out of mind, and tell me if you'll find
that you'd rise and fall, rise and fall

rise and fall

this isn't working, this isn't worth it, it's just bleeding me
this isn't worth it, it's not working, it's just bleeding me
can't you see this is not worth fighting for
can't you see this is not worth it anymore
can't you see that because of this part of me died
because real eyes realize real lies


Calm Side
every day i fall apart inside
there's nothing left but illusions

it's the sun that burns my eyes, open them and see the light
it's the sun that burns my skin, leaving scars deep within
every day I fall apart inside
there's nothing left but destruction
it's the sun that makes you break, snap in two before you wake
it's the sun that makes you think, you can fly before you sink

run into the sun, we will all run into the sun

every day I fall apart inside
there's nothing left but destruction
it's the sun that burns my eyes, open them to see the light
it's the sun that burns my skin, leaving scars deep within
it's the sun that makes you break, snap in two before you wake
it's the sun that makes you think, you can fly before you sink

run into the sun, we will all run into the sun

shadows are my friends, they hide in these four walls around me
when they come out and play, they never leave me alone

run into the sun, we will all run into the sun

shadows were my friends, until they betrayed me
now everything that surrounds me, hates me


Dead2Me
take a deep breath, open your eyes
get ready to drop the disguise
say what you will, truth has shown you
proved you can't think on your own
you turned your back and closed the door
and trailed my blood across the floor

you're dead to me
you're dead to me
you're dead to me - look at your face
you're dead to me - covered in disgrace

it got hard, you turned away
never looked back, never looked the same
you chose your path and picked your side
you will be the one left with the black eye
keep lying, keep hiding, keep thinking you're it
i'll be just fine knowing you're nothing but shit

you're dead to me
you're dead to me
you're dead to me - look at your face
you're dead to me - covered in disgrace

you're dead
all dead to me
you're dead


Gulp
my hands are clenching concrete
holding weight these hands can't take
raining inside my head, stormy weather's on the horizon
watching the sun slip away, watching it all just fade away
is this what was meant for me? is this what's in store for me?
when you stare at me, can you see I'm breaking

sitting in darkness waiting for forgiveness
waiting for a sign from heaven (take it away, take it away)
but i'll just stay here alone
not knowing where i belong (take it away from me)
watching the colors turn green to gray
watching it all just slip away (take it away, take it away)
but i'll just sit here alone
not knowing where i belong (take it away from me)

falling deep into my dreams
flower-coated fields that go for miles
that end at the seas, wash away all purity
dreams never last, and nothing becomes reality
and there's nothing left but this blackened heart inside of me

sitting in darkness waiting for forgiveness
waiting for a sign from heaven (take it away, take it away)
but i'll just stay here alone
not knowing where i belong (take it away from me)
watching the colors turn green to gray
watching it all just slip away (take it away, take it away)
but i'll just sit here alone
not knowing where i belong (take it away from me)

take it away


Here Comes the Pain
when you take it out, and strap it down
let it sink in, sink in and drown
you think that you can't feel this
then just rip it from out your veins

here comes the pain

pull yourself up off the floor
barely able to stand once more
you think that you can't see out
did you think you'd get away

here comes the pain
it's all that remains

here comes the pain
it's all that remains


kill screen 22-1
this can't be beat, this can't be won
we both well know that our time will come
but because we both held this so dear
I expect passion, love, and a lot of tears

I'll hold this composure
just as you asked me to do for you
because i know you only
wish that you could do the same thing too

we both knew the more we gave
the more that would be taken away
but i gladly welcome the pain
because it proves how much you mean to me


less & less &
can you watch - please let me use your eyes one time more
this shadow - can cover less when i'm on fire
seven and four - below the rest of the quiet skies
seemingly - you should not be surprised

stick me deeper into less and less and
stick me deeper into less and less and

all or nothing - i despise more than i can taste from inside
locked away - there won't be a hand left to hide
building pressure - underneath the skin covered eyes
blink again for me - wash away all that i despise

stick me deeper into less and less and
stick me deeper into less and less and


Let This Bleed
we knew this was too dangerous
yet we let ourselves right in
what we shared, let me feel
like i was new at this again

take me by the hand and
acend these stairs into the night
tell me how this is wrong
when everything about it feels just right

I can't tell if we're just letting this bleed
I can only feel this touch
sharp and cool I'm scared and blind

open your eyes and see what we've done
these wounds will take a while to heal
but you said that it was worth it
and I said that I would do it again

I can't tell if we're just letting this bleed
I can only feel this touch
sharp and cool I'm scared and blind


Picking the Scabs
the times when i am most weak - you are so diseased
try your best to break me - i'll never fall to my knees

the way you walk, the way you talk, the way you breathe
the way cry, the way you lie, the way you deny
i'm sick of the strain, sick of the blame, sick of the shame
don't walk ahead, don't walk beside, don't walk behind

the times when i am most weak - you are so diseased
try your best to break me - i'll never fall to my knees

i can't belive i let this go on for so long
love was a myth you sold then stole from me
i never could win the way you played me
picking the scabs makes them bleed, everything must end

picking the scabs

i can't belive i let this go on for so long
love was a myth you sold then stole from me
i never could win the way you played me
picking the scabs makes them bleed

the times when i am most weak - you are so diseased
try your best to break me


rotten
This is not what seems to me as
being another step towards the end
uncertain which way to face
cant get out of this place
I just have to let go of you

rotten away

whats left of center can't be recoursed
fleeting mindset and endless remorse
sparks of infused guidance
can't pinpoint your mindset
illucid and lost which way is through

rotten away

watching stars fall from the skies
they flood my mind and weakening eyes
this can not be far forever
this broken spiral is pointing downward
s unk safetly in the sand
can't get this off of my hands as
you walk by searching to find another
adam for your poisoned apple

yeah you'reone of the everydays
one of the ones who just fades away
one of the ones who when i walk by
i see the coward behind the lion's eyes
keep telling yourself you know what it's like to feel
you say you play the part so well
refuse to belive someone would ever truly care
and just keep going with that same blank stare

this was all meaningless
I had to end this quick and painless
I couldn't just sit here and die
waiting for something to arise
out of nothing but shallow lies from you


scarred
these were all just thoughts to me
these were all just memories
this is not how it's supposed to be
and this is what's become of me

what is it now? what has been done?
in the end, i hope you had your fucking fun

what's this? excuses? thought you said this won't end

did you think i'd forgive and forget?
everybody knows that you deserve exactly what you fucking get

what's this? excuses? thought you said you were my friend

liar


shuggatoh
time to cut the cycle, and make this one last
your last chance is running out, ya better clear the way

i met an old man down town way back in the day
he said "son listen up i got somethin to say"
he said "things aren't like they used to be, son
change is comin, yeah, change is comin" he said..

take a look around you

time to cut the cycle, and make this one last
your last chance is runnin out, ya better clear the way fast

i looked at him not sure what to say
i asked "man how'd you end up this way"
he said "they pushed me, i pushed em back
it's the all-american way"

take a look around you

push, push, like children
push, push, like animals
push, push, to feed your disease of man

time to cut the cycle, and make this one last
all you motherfuckers better clear the way

take a look around you


wait
eyes forced open through these tears but i can only stare at the floor
as I watch you walk through the door i wish I could make you

wait
wait
wait for me
wait
wait
wait for me

you told me yourself heaven wasn't meant for us
yet we stole a piece anyway
now the price we paid for this theivery
is taking it's toll on me

that look in your eyes
the first time I saw you, it shined
and gave me a way
to feel like I've never before
but you had to leave
even though we both wanted this
now i'm left sitting here wondering
why can't you wait

i told you
i'd be the one to hold this composure
but i've faltered, and now i
feel like i'm failing you

that look in your eyes
the first time I saw you, it shined
and gave me a way
to feel like I've never before
but you had to leave
even though we both wanted this
now i'm left sitting here wondering
why can't you wait

that look in your eyes
the first time I saw you, it shined
and gave me a way
to feel like I've never before
but you had to leave
even though we both wanted this
now i'm left sitting here wondering
why can't you wait
wait
wait
why can't you, why can't you
wait


you have to know
I know you know what you've done for me
you got inside so effortlessly
you opened up when no one was willing
and made me unafraid of failing

I've hurt more times than I cared to share
I've carried more weight than I cared to bear
but you let me in and helped me let go
i feel I needed to let you

know - just how you've saved me
know - that you've set me free
know - that whatever happens
you'll always be here in me

some things can't last the test of time
so take what you can and give it your soul
some live some love some die alone
but all of us will play our role
some things were never meant to be
but still they refuse not to be seen
in the end I know we won't be alone
even if we just play our role

alternatives are meaningless
when all i want is to have this
Justice's scale has tipped and now
i am forced to deal with this
just like before now you can see
just how easy it is for me
to slip except that you
care enough not to let me fall

you have to

know - just how you've saved me
know - that you've set me free
know - that whatever happens
you'll always be here in me


you're swallowed
you passed through our life so fast
masking this emotional time of our past
if i could go back, and look behind
i'd turn and run from all our pride

you're swallowed - once again

it crept into all our pores
infecting us making us its whore
dust off this reflection
and inhale your false perfection

you're swallowed - once again

snap back, kick back your neck
release the straps to clear the wreck
we should have known you were too close to the edge
but fate wouldn't let us
know what it felt like to be thrown away
while you were looking for a way to reach us
we were caught blinking through this day to day
we thought that we had gotten through this

you did not have to leave us this way

you're swallowed - once again